Every time I come up with an idea for a new blog post, I'll scribble something down to return to it when I have the chance only to not feel the same way when I go to write! This, my friends, is why my blog has been sitting here, lonely and vacant for so many days. I could almost see the tumbleweeds blowing in the winds across my blogger home screen and decided that even if I had no topic of interest, I was going to write something. So here I sit watching these words fill my page while I frantically try to think of what is going to come next.
I've got nothing...
I could tell you the latest antics of my 4 year old Monster, which I know is always delightful and amusing, but since most of my readers come from Facebook, you've probably already seen them. I'll share anyway.
We've been very focused in our house on the arrival of baby brother, and Monster 1 is oh so eager. Every time I turn around she is telling me how she loves Brother, and asking when he will arrive. The concept of time is lost on a 4 year old, even with the calendar on the wall. All she knows is that we set up Brother's bed in Mommy and Daddy's room today, so of course, he needs to get here so he can use it.
She wants to cuddle with the stuffed bunny that Grandma bought Brother. She wants to look at his clothes. She wants to help clean out his room. She wants to tell me that Brother will not like pink walls.
In essence Monster is reminding me of all the things I have to get done!! She's so sweet though when she talks to him, and tells me she swears she felt him move. "I did Mommy, I really felt him! Was that his belly??" It's so sweet to realize that my children are old enough this time to fully appreciate Brother. Monster2 shakes my belly and says "Wake up Brudder, wake up!" as though he's going to pop his head out and start talking to her. I'm not sure they understand how small he is going to be, or that he won't really be able to play with them yet, but they certainly know and understand he is coming!
On top of all of this "baby is coming" talk, it is a constant source of worry for me. How many times have I turned to my hubby and said "I want him here mostly so that I know I can handle it, and stop worrying about how I am going to take care of three kids!" I am so eager and so excited to meet him, but am constantly thinking of how my day to day life is going to change from I and my girls are so used to.
This worry however, does nothing to dampen the excitement of having this precious little boy coming into our world. I'm so enthralled with all things BOY and can hardly wait for my baby shower! Being blessed with both a close knit family where I live, but also with an extended church family in my hometown, there are so many people who will be celebrating this with me! I'm anxious to travel home for a shower there and to visit with my Mom. It will be the last time for a long while that I will be able to travel! Both hubby and I have decided that until we can trade our car in for a more spacious vehicle, traveling with all three kiddos might prove to be difficult for an extended trip. So as excited as I am to go home, it's also a little bittersweet knowing it could be months before I can do it again. I'm also just as anxious for my shower here where we live, because unlike when I was pregnant with my girls, my circle of friends has expanded and for the first time I will truly be able to enjoy having more people to reach out to when this baby comes. Not only is our family an amazing source of support and love, so are all of our recently developed friendships!
I certainly never imagined being at this point of my life at just the age of 22, but I am beyond blessed. My children are perfect, my family is awesome, and let's face it. I'm getting my tubes tied in December. I couldn't be happier. :)
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